My fingers hurt

Right. I have this bloody piano diploma coming up in TWO WEEKS (panic attack), therefore Iway is not SUPPOSED to be blogging, but my fingers hurt so much from practising 3 hours + every day.

I HATE PIANO. I've lost count of how many times I've kicked my piano in the past coupla weeks, now my feet and my fingers hurt. It seems like the more I play, the worse I get, now is that supposed to happen? AOKFGJRDHRIDOHGAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOEVER INVENTED THE PIANO AND PIANO EXAMS SHOULD DIG THEMSELVES A HOLE AND JUMP IN IT.

It's past my bedtime :( but it seems like I have to forgo my beauty sleep in favour of playing the piano, which, incidentally is on mute right now since my lucky sister is ASLEEP. GAHHH. STRESSED OUT 2 DA MAX right now, and I don't even like piano that much. It's the PRINCIPAL of not failing and losing Chinese face and bringing shame to myself and my family. If I fail, I shall become the laughing stock of the Chinese community. Or at least my mum's group of gossipy ladies, who ALWAYS tell me that I've grown taller. I bet they're just mocking my height.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't Chinese and have to face this daily challenge of keeping honour. English people seem to have it a LOT easier than us yellows. All they seem to do is watch X Factor, drink tea, and eat fish and chips. I wouldn't mind doing that myself.

NOW, I shall relax by listening to some soft jazz music, and lighting some candles (I RECENTLY FINALLY LEARNT HOW TO USE MATCHES. And burned my pinky in the process- how did that happen?!)